Jester

Chance

2012-01-29T22:38:00.002+08:00

Source : http://leloveimage.blogspot.com

Hello 2012

2011-12-31T16:03:00.000+08:00

Last day of 2011, looking back and thinking to myself, what a year.

Ups and downs, many falls, struggled in putting myself back in 1 piece over and over again... Felt like I was sitting on a Mary go round, many miserable rounds on a same place same spot, can't more forward and it just keep spinning round and round.

Didn't think much about how am I going to end my 2011, thinking that it will be just as bad, no expectations, but it turns out to be the most wonderful happenings I ever have.

Met a group of new crazy friends.

Holiday wasn't wasted.

Reunion with some of my oldest friends in life.

Been waking up smiling.

Clear blue sky.

And...

I met you. =)

Believing 2012 its going to be a year, full of hopes and dreams. A fresh and great start!

The journey begins!

Happy new year people and have a fantastic celebration!

Random

2011-12-12T21:36:00.000+08:00

Random pictures, those socks are cute, not mine :)

Christmas 2011

2011-12-12T21:31:00.001+08:00

I never realized how time flies, or maybe i do,just that i didn't want to acknowledge that it was that quick...

This year wasn't really a fantastic year for me, miserable since 2009, hopefully next year will be a better year for me for you for everyone...

How long more i need to be in this situation, i guess i have no one to blame but myself, time to wake up from this nightmare already, it's been too long that i guess sleeping beauty have already woke up a few times from her prince charming's kisses... :)

Life is beautiful, isn't it? Yes it is, have no doubts about it, just by looking at the beautiful Christmas decorations everywhere, who cares if i am celebrating it alone, i don't mind just bringing my camera going down town and capture the decoration and the smiles on the happy faces... I think i'll just set that as my mission for this Christmas... Who is with me? :p

Merry Christmas people, lots of <3...

29th October 2011

2011-11-18T09:54:00.001+08:00

Did you see these faces walking around at Solaris that night?

That night, Marilyn Manson, The Black Swan, Captain America, Marilyn Monroe, Little Red Riding Hood, Posion Ivy, The X-Men, guy from LMFAO were all gathered at the Astro B.yond IPTV Hollywood and Celebrities Night, trust me, there were a lot more celebrities there...

That night was crowded, full of celebrities....

But... There are some who came as sesat celebrities....

Nope not these group of people...

Could be these 2 fella ?

Oklah I was the sesat one, wanted to be Harley Quinn but ended up hanging my mask around my neck, so from front I looked like a vampire, while back I have a Jester mask.

Anyway, Happy Belated Halloween everybody, for those of you who were at Astro B.yond IPTV Hollywood and Celebrities Night, I am sure you guys had fun!

Left Handed

2011-11-10T21:41:00.001+08:00

While waiting for my parents in the office, decided to Google some fact or personality about left handed people, here are some, how true is these?
Source from http://l-pawlik-kienlen.suite101.com/personality-traits-of-lefties-a46563

About 10% of the world’s population is left-handed.
Some doctors believed that left-handed people are more likely to struggle with breast cancer, allergies, and asthma.
Leadership. About 66% of American presidents in the last 30 years were left-handed men. Bill Clinton, George H.W. Bush, Ronald Reagan, and Gerald Fold were all left-handed presidents. Barack Obama and John McCain are both left-handed.
Quick thinkers. Studies have shown that lefties are “exceptional.” Australian research shows that left-handed people think more quickly when playing computer games or sports. Left-handed people also tend to earn more money.
Sexuality. Research from Canada reveals this interesting quality of left-handed people: they’re more likely to be homosexual. (WTFFFFFF???)
Independence: Some experts believe left-handed people are more independent because they’ve had to get along in a world that’s not made for them. Dr Peters says that lefties are “slightly more resistant to social pressures, to have more of an independent streak.”
Adaptability: Canadian research shows that left-handed people are more adaptable than right-handed people. That is, a lefty can use her right hand to do tasks much easier than a righty can use his hand. Left-handed people seem to be able to switch over more easily.

Really? Anyone else who is a lefty?

Heart

2011-10-30T21:32:00.003+08:00

They tell me to follow my heart...

I followed...

But when it hurts, do I still follow?

Blue Sky

2011-10-09T14:36:00.002+08:00

Do you see what I see? Are we at the same place looking up to the same sky?

If one day I were to give up on one thing about me, i think I will give up on feelings, things are so much easier without involving this thing call feeling.

True I might not know how happy feels like, but at the same time, I don't need to have the feeling of worrying or being sad or even angry, isn't better that way?

Went to a meeting at KLCC last week and saw this group of syndrome down children having KFC, sometimes I wonder, are they actually the lucky ones? Or is it still us, the normal crowd.

Friends

2011-10-04T20:14:00.002+08:00

Thanks for giving the poor lonely rabbit a friend, hope this fat smiling dude will walk a long journey with the cranky white bunny...

Acne popping out, painful and annoying...

Happy Tuesday people. :)

Happy Faces

2011-10-02T15:48:00.001+08:00

Faces that will put a smile on your face too... :)

Familiar Stranger

2011-10-02T14:20:00.000+08:00

(Picture Taken : Melaka Jonker Street)

Hello Stranger,

I know you when we were only 18...
Different time zone different culture different lifestyle...
But we did promise each other we will meet up one day...

I am sorry many years back when that one day was approaching,
I ran away...

But now I know that one day is coming again, I won't run away...
I will wait for you and say " Finally eh?..."

We have plenty to catch up, too many you might wanna be here for a month or more... :)
Greetings from Finland, you still look good from the cam I saw the other night.

Stories

2011-09-20T23:32:00.001+08:00

Was reading some of the stories online, not sure if you ever come across certain articles,

Where you will have the familiar feeling, is like someone just wrote the story about your life, without you telling them how you were feeling...

I felt that a moment ago, and I am glad that what I was going through, I wasn't alone, and someone somewhere in this world, is sharing the same thoughts as me.

I love this picture a lot

Arthur's Day

2011-09-20T22:54:00.003+08:00

Been really stress over work?

Been really fed up about not having a proper life?

Been telling yourself that life should be like this like that?

Been knowing friends who has been enjoying their life much?

Been wanting to have a moment of getaway?

You know what?

You should start telling yourself that you wanna celebrate and live your life!

Now sing!

Cause we gon' rock this club

We gon' light it up

Like it's dynamite!

Best part is you don't need to just youtube Taio Cruz video or listen it in a club, because you can see him live!

Yes if you have already know Arthur's day is happening this weekend, prepare yourself to throw your hands up in the air, Saying AYO, gotta LET GO!

Now if you haven't gotten yourself the tickets, all you need to do is just click here and I shall see you at Arthur's Day.

Details of THE DAY

Date: 23 September 2011 (Friday)
Time: 7 pm onwards
Venue: Speed City KL, Selangor Turf Club

YOU BETTER BE THERE!!!

Lavender

2011-08-21T10:49:00.003+08:00

One day, if you were to bring me away...

Bring me to the field filled with the scent of lavender...

And we'll just hide in that little cozy wooden house.

Away from the city, and thinking...

This is life, our life.

Close

2011-08-20T16:53:00.000+08:00

I rather not.
Before I completely lose myself...
I rather not see, not hear and not feel.

Don't keep coming back and tell me it's true, because I don't feel it.
At the end of the day, what matter the most has been gone long ago.

Summer Love

2011-08-11T01:23:00.003+08:00

They say summer love are the ones that never last.

I say...

Summer love are the ones that will last forever in your memory.

Happy Dosage

2011-08-09T22:23:00.000+08:00

Thank you for filling in the happy dosage in this empty jar.
Coffee for you. :)

And hot chocolate for me.

I hope...

2011-08-07T21:18:00.000+08:00

Some day…

I hope to have that biggest jar of jelly beans...

I hope to have that biggest teddy bear...

I hope to have that most beautiful dress on my prom night...

I hope to have that car to drive around town with my girlfriends...

I hope to have that clothing design under my name...

I hope to have that building with the brightest light...

Some day...

I hope to be in that white wedding gown...

I hope to be seeing you in your best tuxedo...

I hope to say ‘I do…”

I hope to just live with you for the rest of my life...

Painting

2011-07-28T01:48:00.000+08:00

There were this 2 young painters, sitting side by side, they were young, fresh, energetic and full of hope.
Both of them decided to paint a picture together 'Hey lets paint Happy?'

So they started with trees, then a hill top, then a sunset view, the picture was warm enough, enough to describe 'Happy', but they thought something was missing, then she said "Ah I know, lets paint a girl and a boy?"

So the boy and the girl were sitting close to each other on the hilltop watching the sunset, it was a perfect Happy painting, both of them are happy, the painter laid her head on his shoulder, then he said "How about putting a Future in this Happy painting?"

And there they added kids running and flying kite on the hill top together with the couple, it looks like a family now, and that feels like Future, both painters looked at each other in their eyes and smiled.

'Hey baby, lets paint an ending?' He asked, she nodded.
They added a bench, an old couple sitting on it holding hands...

Now isn't that a pretty ending? The old couple sitting on the bench, watching their grandchildren running and flying kite, while the mom and dad were just sitting there watching the sunset.

Just went she was about to keep this painting that both of them painted, someone came and told him that she wants to paint a prettier picture with him, so they walked away leaving her behind with the painting.

Sad enough she open up the paint to try and find out what was missing? It was Happy, and there is a Future, which they can imagine how pretty the Ending could be...

The rain came, the painting was gone, she tried touching it up but somehow it doesn't seems to be the one before, he came helping while she was away, no matter how hard they try, the painting was no longer the 1st one...

相信

2011-07-17T11:02:00.000+08:00

听到了，也选择了相信。

放吗？

楼梯得故事

有两张照片，一张是想上拍得，一张是往下拍的。

我拿了往下拍的，正好形容着我的心情指数。

照片：香港

Hi July

2011-07-04T00:26:00.000+08:00

Hi July,

Someone told me you will be my good friend, and I hope so.
One day, just you, me, and a camera, we will capture moments and put them in a beautiful box.

Deal?

Kids

2011-06-26T16:17:00.000+08:00

Was walking with mom at 1 Utama yesterday, saw this little boy at the Transformer's booth asking his dad to buy him the Optimus Prime, so cute!

I told my mom " Mummy, I really love kids, especially those with very Chinese looking ones, with really small eyes, nice pointy nose, then when they smile right, can see all the little baby teeth nicely line up, and you can barely see the eyes, so cute! I wanna have a baby now!"

Expecting my mom to ask me to focus on work first, family can come later bla bla bla, she said "Ya go give birth one for me, so I can play with my grandchild..." *Eh totally speechless*

I do love kids, really cute ones, if I ever have my own kids, if is a HE, I will make sure he wear really cute tiny sport shoes, polo T shirts or checkered shirt.
If is a SHE, I will make sure she wear really cute bright colour flowery dresses, and also with cute pair of shoes.

My cousin's son, geram feel like biting his cheeks!

Dear Stranger

2011-06-20T19:32:00.000+08:00

Dear Stranger,

If you happen to find my heart,

Can you help me to keep it in a safe box,

Safe from others who wants to hurt it badly,

Because if I ever have it back,

I might hand it over to the same person,

Whom I know, he will hurt it over and over again.

I rather not have it back.

5th June 2011 - Smile

2011-06-05T18:12:00.000+08:00

Today, I watched a few videos and I realize human being are actually strong in their mind.
No matter how unfortunate you are, but when you stand strong, you are always a better person.

Even if the whole world give up hope on you, as long as you still have faith in yourself, that's where you stand up and face them, because you are your own greatest strength, and you will be the one who will always stand by your side.

On a side note, I never really understand how to properly define someone with a sweet smile and presence, but now I know, is where no matter how bad things can go wrong, you greet it with a smile, and in exchange the world smile with you.

Smile People.

Picnic For Two?

2011-05-30T17:35:00.001+08:00

Just the two of us

Sitting side by side

With the beautiful greenery

Walking down memory lane

Wondering how lucky we are

To have each other

All the time...

Too Many

2011-05-16T11:21:00.003+08:00

Too many voices talking in her head...

Can't focus can't analyze can't think...

Too many faces to identify...

Can't identify which is real which is not...

Too many things that doesn't flow your way...

Can't control mindsets which doesn't belong to own self...

Too many thoughts that both brain and the heart doesn't sync...

Can't decide if I should follow the brain or the heart...

These are not pleasant feelings, not positive stress, and sometimes you just feel like screaming and hope everything will be fine soon...

The bottle is cracking, not long before it shatter by these...

Timing

2011-05-10T19:18:00.000+08:00

She told herself that she will give another chance if he ask.

He told himself he will need more time to think about it.

She told herself that she will never walk back into his life.

He told himself that he will never make her sad again if given a chance.

Timing is just not with us all the time, most of the time.

Rain

2011-05-07T20:15:00.001+08:00

I wish it is raining now,

So I can stand under the rain,

And no one will know.

Memories

2011-05-06T01:24:00.001+08:00

When things are right in front of you,
You just tend to take it for granted,
And think that it would be okay,
Because you know for a fact that it might just be there for you,
Even the most silly thought that,
It will be there forever...

But forever...
It just a different interpretation for each individual,
Some forever will last a decade,
Some might last only 1 day.

And when that day comes,
The only thing you can hold on to,
Are the things which will last you forever,
Those are what we call memories...

Fool

2011-05-04T19:24:00.001+08:00

Breathing in that familiar scent in the air,
I wonder who have that same scent as yours,
Or it is just me missing the smell on your shirt that I am imagining it,
I am too good at it because...
It felt so real that I fooled myself by turning around to look for that person.

There was no one.

3rd May 2011

2011-05-03T00:56:00.003+08:00

I know I shouldn't be feeling like this, I have enough reasons to tell myself not to feel like this, but then me being me, I judge myself quicker than anyone else, and I set really high expectations for myself, sigh...

I hope I will be doing better, don't wanna wake up every morning feeling this invisible force pressing against my chest making me hard to breath...

How I wish I can just have the pills from the movie 'Limitless', to activate 100% of my brain, know every damn skills on earth, so I can be my own everything, can exactly do what I have picture in mind and put it in real.

Or I don't mind being weird in having more than 1 brain, few more extra arms and legs to work things faster, be able to multi-task.

At the end of the day, there is no such genius pill, no such thing as having more than 1 brain and extra few arms and legs, because...

I am only human...

Goodnight people, you guys have a blast! =)

Quiet Night

2011-04-27T22:56:00.002+08:00

Back in the office at 10.57pm...

I like the feeling of being alone in the office sometimes, maybe it helps me to focus and concentrate more...

The office at this hour, no it's not spooky, it's just relaxing, our office are with really dim lights, and we have pretty windows where you can actually see the city lights of KL.

Playing Michael Buble's song, I miss his concert, if he ever performing here again, I will be there.

Before I left home today, I overheard this song sang by a Chinese singer, caught 1 sentence of the lyrics.

"Everyone love someone else, but not themselves"

How true is that... =)

The Weird Feeling

2011-04-17T17:08:00.002+08:00

Life is like an onion : You peel it off one layer at a time, and sometimes you weep.

True isn't it, ask yourself how many layers you have peel, and how many times you weep.

Hot Air Balloon

2011-04-03T13:30:00.001+08:00

Was at this hot air balloon thing, well, no I didn't manage to be in any of them, because if you wants to ride on one, you need to be there by 6am, like seriously? Clearly I screwed that.

But it's a new experience, I don't really see hot air balloons before even if I do, not in so many pattern and design. Here are some pictures!

Nice eh?

Everything Changes

2011-04-03T02:03:00.000+08:00

If you just walked away
What could I really say?
Would it matter anyway?
Would it change how you feel?

I am the mess you choose
The closet you cannot close
The devil in you i suppose
'Cause the wounds never heal

But everything changes
If I could
Turn back the years
If you could
Learn to forgive me
Then I could learn to feel

Sometimes the things I say
In moments of disarray
Succumbing to the games we play
To make sure that it's real

But everything changes
If I could
Turn back the years
If you could
Learn to forgive me
Then I could learn to feel

When it's just me and you
Who knows what we could do
If we can just make it through
The toughest part of the day

But everything changes
If I could
Turn back the years
If you could
Learn to forgive me
Then I could
Learn how to feel
Then we could
Stay here together
And we could
Conquer the world
If we could
Say that forever
Is more than just a word

If you just walked away
What could I really say?
And would it matter anyway?
It wouldn't change how you feel

Michael Buble 13th March 2011

2011-04-02T19:28:00.000+08:00

This was the best present I ever bought for myself on my birthday, a ticket to Michael Buble concert with my favourite people too, what else I can ask more... =)

Until now, when I look back at the pictures, I still miss it a lot, and I told myself if he is gonna be here again, I don't mind paying more for his concert, because it's just worth it, really.

I was hooked on to him when I was looking for songs to download, and I accidentally downloaded the song ' I wanna go home', and I totally fall for him after the first time listening to his voice, I was accidentally in love.

That's where I started paying a lot of attention to him, listening to almost all his songs, especially when I was about to sleep, I would have this habit of listening to one or two of his songs, helps me to sleep better, all the time.

I gotten more in love, when someone like him introduced this song 'Lost' to me, every now and then when I listen to it, it brings back memories, good ones.

Another thing I really miss is the company trip on a cruise, that was really awesome and I am gonna miss it a very long time.

Chapter Closed

2011-04-02T19:10:00.000+08:00

Was reading a lot of news about the victims in Japan, NZ and some other places which was affected by the earthquake, I felt a heartache.

I have been through some rough time these few weeks, ups and down, dilemma, confused, angry, sad, hopeless... But when I looked at myself after reading all those articles about this people, mine was merely nothing.

If I have a bad day, I have a bunch of friends I know I can count on to, a family to talk to, and most importantly a home I can go back to, and just cuddle under the blanket and sleep, and even if I have a nightmare, when I wake up, I know it's just a nightmare and it's not real.

Relationship is not the main focus in life, there are so many things more to do, worth spending time worrying and planning for, instead of just restrain self at a corner thinking about things which is not worth spending time and think everything is going to be alright.

I have a bigger heart to love more than hate, to give more than take, and to forgive and forget.

Chapter Closed. Move on.

An old friend of mine, they say we look alike, do we? Really? :)

Hold On

2011-03-29T02:58:00.001+08:00

So hold on to me tight
Hold on, I promise it'll be alright
Cause we are stronger here together
Then we could ever be alone
Just hold on to me
Don't you ever let me go
Hold on to me, it's gonna be alright
Hold on to me tonight
They always say we were the lucky ones

#Michael Buble

Sometimes

2011-03-26T15:59:00.003+08:00

People said things are all within your control...

But I guess its not all, because sometimes...

Things are not within your control...

But... If you can't control what's happening, maybe you can try to control the outcome of it...

LOL

2011-03-20T13:45:00.002+08:00

Hahahaha poor lady...

20th March 2011

2011-03-20T00:35:00.002+08:00

Today is one really good Saturday, totally felt that it wasn't wasted...

I didn't sleep through the whole day, did not just surf the internet the whole day, but...

Woke up at 6am to see the pretty hot air balloons...

Went for some crazy badminton with the nuffies...

Nothing much to update, happy Sunday everyone. =)

p/s : I love rainy days...

What?

2011-03-02T21:35:00.002+08:00

Was talking to this friend of mine, she was too curious to know why am I being single.

"Single? You sure or not? For sure not long one, your queue so long, so many to choose from..."

"Wahlau you think I choose people only? People also got the right to choose me one okay, not when I say I want then I can get..."

"Your standards too high lah must be, if not you sure can get one... Better lower your standards a bit, if not how many people you are going to reject? Then because of your character, sooner or later you become your own boyfriend..."

**She made me sounds like I am some, I dunno, it just doesn't sounds good**

"Got such thing as becoming your own boyfriend? Wtf?"

Someone who is mature, stable, caring, and loving - high standards?

Don't think so... Let's see what are the no no characters I won't get attracted to...

I can't take guys with childish character, and thinks he knows everything but just living in a nutshell.

I don't quite admire guys who just live their life each day and not plan for a future.

I don't like guys who mask a lot, it doesn't look good when I find out the person behind it.

I don't like guys who boast about nothing but himself - Hate it when someone is always full of himself...

Not picky, am I? =P

Game Trailers

2011-02-27T18:04:00.003+08:00

Was actually watching the trailer for Transformers, and accidentally stumble upon this cool game trailer, which I kind knew it quite sometime ago, but didn't really watch it.

I was watching this trailer - Dead Island. (I will definitely want to get my hands on this game)

One awesome game trailer, haven't watch something like this, despite having the zombies growling at the back scene, together with the theme song, seriously, it brings out all the emotions man.

The last scene was the killer, that makes you go all emotional... T_T

One word for this game trailer - Brilliant

After done watching the emo trailer, I watched Alice - Been hearing how dark this Alice in Wonderland is, and yea the trailers are very much based on various dark elements, not the Disney ones when I watched, everything was so candy colour and pretty.

The Disney version will make people wanna go wonderland

This version will makes you have goosebumps over wonderland, not really a wonderland.

Nevertheless, me being me, I love dark themes, the darker the better, so, I love the trailers, here you go :)

Did you enjoy it? Or is it only me? :P

18th February 2011

2011-02-18T08:07:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was the last day of CNY, never really attended any of the chap goh meh activities, throwing oranges for me is such a waste, I guess I would very much set up a mini stall selling those oranges after people throwing them. =D

For me, I went to a place, nowhere near the sea, it was a view you can see the highways and buildings, when you close your eyes and listen, you hear cars cutting through the busy streets, a different kind of calmness you get when the breeze were blowing against your face.

I looked upon the sky, the moon was bright, only very few shining stars, and I saw this plane, makes me wonder passengers on board, where are you going?

Everyone is going to a same place, sitting on a same plane, but different purposes, some for travel, some for work, some for any other reasons.

Same as life, pretty sure everyone wants to be happy, we're living on a very same planet, but different things define happiness for different individuals.

What's your definition of happiness? =)

Good morning peeps, time for me to get ready for a 2 days conference up at a hill!

Love Quote

2011-02-16T21:52:00.002+08:00

For you :)

The hours I spend with you I look upon as sort of a perfumed garden, a dim twilight, and a fountain singing to it...

You and You along make me feel that I am alive...

Other men, it is said, have seen angels, but I have seen thee and thou art enough.

By George Moore

Happy CNY

2011-02-13T15:18:00.000+08:00

Ya I know, it's almost ending already but heck it's never too late!

This year is kinda quiet for me, not much of a visiting but impromptu visit to one of the highlands.

I used to remember how ambitious I was in collecting ang paus, as if I set KPIs for it, but now, no more, but I do enjoy the time spent with my family, the older you grow, the more you will understand the importance and tend to appreciate it more, I am sure my brother felt the same too...

This year, let's make sure it's going to be awesome!

Happy CNY peeps.

The Goon Family

Not forgetting him too...

I Need to Exercise

2011-02-11T16:53:00.003+08:00

Seriously...

When I was back in Ipoh during CNY, my cousins was asking why do I look different...

One of them said : Eh I think because you gained weight!

OUCH!

Ok need to exercise because I am a big time failure in dieting thank you.

Planning my weekly or maybe daily schedule already... Ok let's just stick to weekly =D

Life

2011-02-02T03:39:00.002+08:00

I met up with an old friend today, I met up with him because I saw his Facebook status that I only knew that his mom passed away 2 weeks ago, yes without me knowing if I did not pay attention to the status...

He was okay, I hope... When he was sharing how his mom suffered from the sickness, I saw the corner of his eyes, it was wet... He said without his mom now, his life seems to very different...

While he was talking to me, I saw there was this couple with their new born baby, mom was feeding the baby with milk, and dad was looking at their precious happily...

When one is gone, one is born... Life is that simple, is that pretty, is just a circle...

Now look back at your life circle, what you have achieve, and where are you now? If everything is on your track, you should be smiling when you think of it... =)

Happy Chinese New Year people, and Happy Holidays...

You all out there, deserve to take a break, and just smile, smile from the heart.

Thank You

2011-02-02T03:17:00.001+08:00

Thank you for the turtle wax...

I wasn't really focusing that night... T.T

Yes, I scratched my car, brand new...

This Is It

2011-01-29T19:55:00.000+08:00

I guess this is it...

For how it's going to be...

19th January 2011

2011-01-19T04:26:00.000+08:00

It's been more than half a month since the new year has begun, I should feel that it's a brand new start, and I guess I didn't manage to do it because I accidentally brought in the old stuff from last year to a new year, big mistake really...

How have I been feeling? I don't know, how could someone be at this stage for so long, way too long, tried many ways, or maybe I didn't try hard enough.

Sometimes the most simple things are the things that is the most difficult to have, I think being happy and love is quite simple, but somehow it doesn't last long, it's always been like that, they come and go, as quickly as they can, the happier you are, the faster it will be gone, how come?

How about one of the old topic, or a trending topic that have been with us since the longest time? No not talking about sex but yea the thing call love, it happens to me, they come quickly and left quickly too, don't seems to capture it for a longer time, the longest was 4 years plus and poof, there you go, it's gone.

I am easily cheered when I see the people that I care are happy, but then when I look back at myself, I don't know what went wrong, most of them just want to have some fun, well isn't it more fun and happy when you can be with someone that you really have the heart to be with? Doesn't fun originated from the feeling of happy, and doesn't happy feelings are generated when you know you can love someone who loves you back?

I am in a totally different situation, I have a heart of steel for the longest time, I won't want to blame the previous relationships that made me into this, I don't believe in fairytale no more, I don't believe that if you love someone whole heartily, they will too, I don't believe that even if you do your best, they will appreciate.

I am just negative towards this word call love, call me a non believer, and I am not afraid to admit it.

Do you agree that the older you grow,the more you gain in life experience, and funny thing is, life experience is somewhat you need to pay, not pay by cash, you pay life experience by things which is so valuable when you're much younger, things like patience, faith, happiness, satisfactory... No?

Randomly saw this tweet on twitter which is quite meaningful.

总有人问你“有对象没？”“呵呵，没有呢。”“不可能吧！”其实，那是真的，不是没人追，只是没有合适的；不是眼光高，只是没有感觉的。也许有时想恋爱，想让自己不再寂寞，可是那个人却没有，不想随随便便的爱了。因为有一种单身叫“宁缺勿滥”，有一种单身只为等待某人。

Good morning world, it's only 4.22am and you should still be in bed...=)

A Story

2011-01-09T21:23:00.000+08:00

She was adventurous, he was adventurous.

When they were at the beach, it was the wrong season of the year, she wasn’t feeling adventurous, and just planning to stroll down the beach and see the sun set before the rain comes.

He was being a boy, a rascal, persuading her to do parasailing together…

The girl was being stubborn, and the guy was pushing her limits…

“Really, it would be fun, parasailing only, I thought you are always up for adventure?!”

“No I don’t feel like doing it like now at this moment, I really don’t have the mood…”

“Come let’s try, really, just come!!”

“I don’t want really… I really don’t feel like it…”

The conversation was merely the same outcome, he won’t give up asking her to try parasailing, and she won’t let it in by rejecting him… At one point, she was pissed and angry…

“I said I don’t want, means I don’t want lah! I really don’t want!!! Stop asking me to try, I don’t want!!!...”

Almost at her top of her voice, he too at his top of his voice but with that cheeky face said it with a really fast pace…

“Ok so either parasailing or you marry me!”

“I will rather marry you!” – Without really knowing what she had just said…?

He was laughing and asking “So you rather marry me over parasailing?”

She pinched him on his arms, and started laughing but insisted that she won’t do para sailing.

This story somehow made me cried.

To 2011

2011-01-09T13:29:00.001+08:00

Hi 2011,

Thank you for entering my life now, before 2010 said goodbye, he did not kiss me goodbye and gave me sweet words on his last day, maybe you actually spoken to 2010 and you both figure out that I shouldn't have a good start with you.

Just so you know, I think it is getting better, when everything is clearer, I will be controlling you and making things to flow all my way...

Just so you know...

Regards,

Jester

I miss the sun, beach and sand already...

"It is our attitude at the beginning of a difficult task which, more than anything else, will affect its successful outcome."

~William James~

Company Trip - Phuket

2011-01-04T00:44:00.002+08:00

There are some pictures I will really love to share here, these are some that I took during the cruise when we were stopping at Phuket for a day. =)

I've been to Phuket during 2009, it was really a memorable one, although we went there during the wrong season, when it was raining and the beach was rough, but then still we enjoyed it, at least I did, and it was a happy one.

These are some of the pictures taken during last year's visit, when I was there to watch one of the famous show

This year, I was back at the same beach, but a different group of lovelies, different feelings...

It was during the afternoon when we left the mother ship to Phuket Island...

Besides only open fire in games like left 4 dead, Karen, Fresh and I just have to follow the boys (Tim Tiah, Nic Chay and Firdy) to do the real thing, I am proud that I have fired a shot gun, and it was freaking awesome!

After some really good massage, we then pamper ourselves with the beautiful sunset

And gotten some real tiny crab as hair pin - Ok we didn't kill it, it's just so fascinating to have this little small creatures on your palms, then soon on your head...

Something that everyone will wanna do when they are at the beach - Jumpshots

By night time, we met up with the rest of the nuffies, some of them were letting go their wishes to the dark sky, which this small little lights lightened the sky slightly, pretty.

Back to the ship for dinner, and really, the ship from far was just pretty, classy and elegant, which I couldn't believe that I was going back to that classy huge thing.

It was really pretty, everything was, the ambiance, the people...

I was thinking a lot during the cruise trip, I don't know is it because of the whole atmosphere feeding me sentimental thoughts or it's just me, but I do enjoy every moment of the trip, it was really one awesome trip I have had so far in my life.

I will visit Phuket again, one day...

I will be back!

Merry Christmas 2010

2010-12-25T22:08:00.000+08:00

Before the clock strikes 12am, I am going to wish everyone here a Merry Christmas. =)

This year, I have been blessed, despite of the down moments I went through, eventually all these turns out to make me prepared for the happy moments I didn't see it earlier.

May you be bless with everything nice.

Cheers!

Picture taken in Cameron

Company Trip

2010-12-19T09:56:00.000+08:00

It's been a week since I was back from the cruise, and I still miss every moment when I was with the Nuffies.

You know sometimes places you go, it very much depending on the the attraction and experience that a place can provide, and another important fact is that, the people who you are going with, and the Nuffies are just simply awesome. =)

Let me quickly summarize some of the happenings during the trip:

We were late ad we almost missed our ship, yes almost miss the ship, not a bus wtf, the captain was asking why were we late and saying that we only have 2 minutes to get everything registered because the registration counter was closed like 15 minutes ago! *press the panic button*

A bit blur because we are so late and while entering the ship, some of the nuffies are still lining up...

But well, I can't imagine if we will all be left at the port there fml, finally everyone got up the ship and there everything happens here!

Michelle and me, camwhoring on the ship

Some of the female Nuffies (Like beauty pageant wtf)

The lazy judges

We played an ice breaking game - 2 truths and 1 lie

My 3 sentences was :

1. I was in a basketball team during secondary school

2. I kissed a girl

3. I hate horror movies

Now you guys, lets see if you know which one is a LIE. =D

You know what, out of so many days, the first day was the only day it wasn't raining in the evening, and we get to see the sun set, so beautiful that I wanna cry (Ok just kidding on the crying part but it was really pretty)

At this moment, my mind was just blank while I look into this beautiful view, the earth is just amazing, and breath taking...

There is a rainbow behind us!

The wind was just so strong that you can actually feel it blowing on your face, something when you do skydiving, but of course the impact is lesser.

So I decided maybe the girls should do something like this, and here are some of my favourite shots.

Let your hair down, and feel the freedom
After the hair blowing scene, we went for dinner, and it's what you call fine dinning.

Food was good and everything was really nice, which you will forget you are on a ship, it feels more like a mall not until you walk to the outside and feel the sea breeze again.

Look like a mall right?

Till then, I shall continue my next post where the ship stops at Phuket!

Anyone of you haven't been on a cruise, please you have to go, and stop thinking about what happen to Poseidon and Titanic!

SMILE

Shine When It's Dark

2010-11-30T20:10:00.001+08:00

Still in the office, working while waiting to go for dinner...

I have a blank mind now, or I just have too many in mind which makes me felt that it's blank, you know those when you can imagine have hundreds or thousands of flash card flashing in front of your eyes, that you don't even have the time to properly what was the image and you have to move on to the next one? Ended up you will be as blur as it is, and don't know what was it all about.

What's life without up or down right, but make sure when 'down' is here to greet you, welcome them with your open arms, because you won't know 'up' might be following 'down' closely from behind, so if you choose to ignore 'down', you will missed 'up' too...

I guessed it applies the same to what if life is always that good, without seeing the dark side, we never know how bright is bright, how dark is dark, to strike a balance, these 2 comes in a combo, to make sure you see things clearly.

Try this, if the sun is shining too bright, you know that kind of brightness where you can't even see what's surrounding you? Put on you shades and there, you can see clearly whats on your left and right already.

A little bit of dark makes you see clearer, don't you agree?

When is the brightness going to shine on me? Soon I guess...

Me?

2010-11-28T20:52:00.000+08:00

I don't know...
It seems alright at first, now it seems weird...
It's either I clearly know what I actually wanted, or it's just me fated to be like this...

Lightning? How long can it last? End like a lightning too?

Good Morning Sunday

2010-11-21T10:13:00.001+08:00

**Random Update**

Had a good company these 2 days because I got a room mate with me - Elise Tay, one of the Singapore nuffie came down to KL to eat.pray.love. =P

I am sure we did gave her many to eat, plenty of love,but pray, okay not sure if I should bring her to a temple before she goes back to Singapore later in the afternoon. =P

Will be taking plenty of pictures before she leaves, so shall update again!

Besides that, there were quite a lot of happenings this week, feels like it's been the longest week and it felt like a year, everything seems to move just too fast within a week, not a bad thing. =)

Till then, I think I put on quite a lot of weight, you know why?

Because I have been having dessert lately, and I wasn't a dessert person before, things change. >.<

(Was having 2 ice creams at once while chilling with Jenhan and Kim weeks ago)

Am I the eating monster now?

Shall end with a quote :

Everything has beauty, but not everyone sees it." ~ Confucius

Counting By Marbles

2010-11-14T11:18:00.002+08:00

This is quite a long story, but if you have the patient to read it, I guess you will gain something today. =)
I was cleaning my room when my cupboard was attacked by the termites, I found this really old newspaper clipping, the date was 2nd November 2003, a 7 years old story which I kept it long enough, to again remind me how much I shall treasure things in life and not let regrets take over when you have little time left on earth, so I thought I would want to share with you, who are reading my blog now.

The older I get, the more I enjoy Saturday mornings. Perhaps it's the quiet solitude that comes with being the first one to rise, or maybe it's the unbounded joy of not having to be at work. Either way, the first few hours of Saturday morning are most enjoyable. A few weeks ago, I was shuffling towards the kitchen with a teaming cup of coffee in hand and the morning paper in the other hand. What began as a typical Saturday morning turned into one of those lessons that life seems to hand you from time to time.

I turned the volume up on my radio in order to listen to a Saturday morning talk show. I heard an older sounding chap with a golden voice. You know the kind like he should be in the broadcasting industry.

He was talking about 'a thousand marbles' to someone named 'Tom'. I was intrigued and sat down to listen to what he had to say.

"Well Tom, it sure sounds like you're busy with your job. I'm sure they pay you well but it's a shame you have to be away from home and your family so much. Hard to believe young fellow should have to wok 60 or 70 hours a week to make ends meet, Too bad you missed your daughter's dance recital.
He continued, " Let me tell you something, Tom : Something that has helped me keep a good respective on my own priorities."

And that's when he began to explain his theory of a 'Thousand marbles."

"You see, I sat down one day and did a little arithmetic. The average person person lives about 75 years. I know, some live more and some less, but on average, folks live about 75 years old.
Now then, I multiplied 75 times 52 and I came up with 3,900 which is the number of Saturdays that the average person has in their entire life.
It took me until I was 55 years old to think about all this in any detail and by the time I had lived through over twenty-eight hundred Saturdays, I got to thinking that if I lived to be 75, I only had a thousand of them left to enjoy.
So I went to a toy store and bought every single marble they had, having ended up visiting 3 toy stores to round up 1,000 marbles, I took them home and put them inside of a large, clear plastic container right here next to the radio. Every Saturday since then, I have taken one marble out and thrown it away.
I found that by watching the marbles diminish, I focused more on the really important things in life. There is nothing like watching your time here on earth run out to help you get your priorities straight.
Now let me tell you one last thing before I sign off with you and take my family out for a breakfast. This morning I took the very last marble out of the container. I figure if I make it until next Saturday then I have been given a little extra time. And the one thing we can all use is a little more time."

You could have heard a pin drop when he finished. Even the show's moderator didn't have anything to say for a few moments. I guess he gave us all a lot to think about.
I had planned to do some work that morning and go to the gym. Instead I went upstairs and woke my wife up with a kiss and ask her out for a breakfast. "What brought this on?" She asked with a smile.
"Oh nothing honey, it's just been a long time since we spent a Saturday together with the kids. Hey can we stop by a toy store later? I need to buy some marbles..."

I was only 18 years old when I read this article, and I knew I have to keep it by pinning this on my little DIY board in my old house. I still remembered after reading this, I actually went to both my parents and read it out loud to them when they were having breakfast, I never felt how inspiring my Saturday morning was, and now I still feels the same after reading it every time, something to keep us thinking how limited time we have on earth, and how much we can really do when we are still young, and never too late to realize the priorities in life you have once set.

I hope you felt the same way like I do after reading this entry, if you think you want to share it with your friends, spread the love.
Till then, cheers and have a great Sunday morning. ^^

The Road Not Taken

2010-11-09T23:40:00.001+08:00

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,

And having perhaps the better claim

Because it was grassy and wanted wear,

Though as for that the passing there

Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay

In leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I marked the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads on to way

I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference.

-Robert Frost-

How many of us actually took the road less traveled? How many of us actually gotten the courage to risk in chasing dreams? If you were given the chance, will you do it for yourself?

Chances are not given by anyone but yourself, we create our own opportunity and go for it, I believe in that, and you?

Watching myself in 10 years time, and see if I already took a big step and being happy that I chose to chase my dreams instead of playing safe.

We'll see...

Stealing

2010-11-08T23:22:00.000+08:00

My dad was just sharing a story about all this snatch thieves and robbery happening so often now, that being a girl walking on a street is just a disadvantage (there goes my courage to tell him what I planned to do...)

Was thinking about you snatch thieves and robbers, I wonder how you feel stealing things from people who are not prepared for you coming, you snatch and made your victim fall thus hurting themselves.

I wonder, do you feel good keeping things that once belongs NOT to you but someone else? I hope you really feel insecure and paranoid about everything, that soon someone will just knock on your door and claim back the things you took from them.

I actually pity that you have to live your life in the dark and being paranoid all the time.

Good Night Monday

2010-11-02T00:36:00.001+08:00

Been sleeping late these few weeks, not staying up on purpose, but just don't realize that time flies...

Another week has begun, and the second day of the week has ended, how fast... T_T

Skin getting really bad these days, and I am putting on weight like no one's business...

I need some exercise, but I just don't have the time, or the energy to go after working hours, or even weekends, I want to go cycling though, last time I used to go Bukit Cahaya to cycle and I do remember how interesting the insects were, they were HUGE! Reminded me of that spider that I spotted in my brother's room, which I thought it was from the freaking dinosaur age, long skinny legs, with an oval body, until now I can still picture it in my mind, damn creepy. (FYI I am okay with all kinds of insects but not arachnid)

Going off for a short break this week, let's hope I will loose some weight when I am back to KL and not putting on more...

Also early greetings to my fellow Hindu friends, Happy Deepavali!

Till then, I shall visit SPCA soon since it's so near my place. =)

You My Friend

2010-10-31T13:14:00.000+08:00

Met up with an old friend on Friday night, it was good to see him again, but knowing him that long, he must have a lot of things that he wanted to share, it was an unhappy experience for him.

To You :
When things happen, there will be a majority of people spreading rumours and start to judge on the situation, be it the fact that these people might not even know you, they are just simply listening and judging from a third party, do accept the fact that message being passed through so many channels, it somehow will be different from what the real situation was.

This world is just like that, human beings are just like that, some don't even bother asking and just accept what others say, so what you going to do about it? Go to all these people one by one and explain to them? No, you don't need to do that, and simply just let it be, soon or later when some other things caught their attention, they will forget what was yours.

I am sorry for what she had done to you, and I know a moment of anger can create so much trouble, but then again, it's okay to have mistakes, but to never repeat them again, if we don't have any mistakes in life, we will never know what's right or wrong, mistakes is part of chapters in our life, and if life is just perfect, what is the meaning of perfect at the end of the day?

Yes she could be the one masking it and telling everyone a different story, which is unfair to you, but then again, you have to remember when someone finds out one day the truth is not what she was telling, she will going to have her own judgement day, but let's not nail that image in head and hoping it to happen, life goes on, and these are just possibly the 1% of your 100% life, so why let the small number affect the big number you should be taking care of?

Come on now, someone else is definitely worth more your effort for all this, and no matter what, people who loves you and knows you well, they will always come back to you and ask for the truth and not being judgmental, even if you were wrong and it was really a mistake, I am sure it doesn't affect them to accept the truth and accept who you are.

You are an engineer, you should be good in numbers, let me put it this way :
Estimating we have 6,878,400,000 human beings on earth, and you might only have 5 real friends for life, the math should be like this for your pie chart in life.

1% = 6,878,399,995
99% = 5

You got us to support you, in any ways. =)

Forgiveness does not change the past, but it
does enlarge the future.
-- Paul Boese.

Life's A Movie

2010-10-29T00:59:00.001+08:00

Looking at someone else, is like watching a movie, movie of his/her life.

We are all actors in our own life, I don't quite agree if we are also the director of our life, if we are, we should have known what is going to happen next, with full script and storyline in hand, all prepared.

Sometimes when you focus too much on the details, you don't see what is happening on the outside.

Step back a few steps, and look into the big picture with many other details, things can be easier.

When you are watching other people's movie, do you know you are being watch too?

I miss the days where you can just be anyone you want.

Wedding

2010-10-24T19:25:00.000+08:00

My parents attended this wedding yesterday night while I was at Hennessy Artistry.

They brought home the wedding door gifts, which makes me go aww...

Usually what we get will be the usual chocolates in heart shapes, which wrap nicely in cute little small boxes, but for this one, I noticed the difference and uniqueness. =)

It was these 2 little cute tiny bottles of honey, something very simple, but yet unique.

The message on the bottle is just right

Something to consider in life, people will remember you in your own unique way, you don't need to change because someone ask you to, because no one knows you better than yourself.

Record Breaking

2010-10-23T11:45:00.001+08:00

Seriously, those who has been friends with me for quite some time, will know that I can just fall asleep within minutes, yes seriously.

I don't really have the difficulty in falling asleep, but just not my luck to sleep peacefully throughout the night.

I have to do this because I myself find it hilarious, that if I were him, I will probably think this girl is just 'amazing' in her own ways... T_T

To Poor Friend : I am sorry! It's a bad idea to go online while you are lying down, it's really a bad idea for me... T_______T

This is the day I passed out without me knowing that the crime scene was captured! >.<

Back To School

2010-10-22T11:23:00.001+08:00

Remember the days when we carry heavy school bags, wait for the school bus, and wear the same thing everyday, that was not so fun, until I studied in my uni, and I think it was more fun for those who actually gotten the chance to study overseas - Thats what I wanted to do but well I don't have the chance back then. =)

I always wanted to go back to my previous uni to visit my lecturers, but yes I just didn't have the time yet.

But one thing is that, no matter how long you have been working already, once you step foot in a college without the formal attire, naturally you will feel like a student again, do you?

Well I was at Taylor's Lakeside for G+ meeting and Churpchurp fly kite day! The first thing that came across my mind when I stepped in the college - "Omg you young brats are just damn lucky right? Whoever who is studying there now, you are enjoying every moment man!"

Lecture hall was seriously huge and all equipment was just talking about technology, like seriously...

It makes me really wanna go back to uni and study again.

If you don't like looking at your lecturer, you can shift your sight to the beautiful lake right behind the piece of solid glass, nice? It is...

Students wannabe

And after class, we went fly kite with the blue round bird!

This is my first time flying a real kite, I remember I used to DIY my own kite, like just tying a string to a pink plastic bag and it will just fly, those were the days when I was only a primary student, and now kids get to have kites that some cost you more than RM50, lucky lucky lucky...

Number 1 thing is to have a nice proper kite that will never let you down.

Number 2 thing of course with a big compound for you to run and make the kite touch the sky

Should go fly kite again someday although it was tiring, oh you know what, at Taylor's Lakeside, you have Starbucks and Baskin Robbins, really seriously you lucky student!!!

Next I was thinking I should go visit FRIM Kepong. =)

Have you had your Oktoberfest?

2010-10-05T20:25:00.002+08:00

Friday nights are not meant to end early, because Fridays are meant to be a celebration of a new beginning of a weekend!

What do I usually do when it comes to Friday night? Well back to my boring days, I will just skip every single after work activities and go home, but after much realizing about life, I should do things more than just going home and sleep, and one of the things that I did with my fellow colleagues was having some chill time at the Oktoberfest last week Friday, yea you hear me right, it was at Souled Out, some of you might be there but well we just didn’t see each other.

And talking about the crowd? It was crazy!

Seriously if you are a beer person, you won’t want to miss the 1 liter mug with Tiger beer in it, and yea I love beer that leaves a layer of white mustache on your upper lips, and hell no kidding, the mug is just one really collectable item you can show your grandson how was the Oktoberfest back then, means the mug is freaking solid and you can use it as a weapon of defense.

Now you see, the mug on the right looks like a beer float, try it with ice cream next time, and I will be the 1^st one to gulp everything. =D (And go home like a human size walking tomato)

The last time I tried gulping everything in one shot (Don’t do that although it is only RM50 per 1 liter of Tiger beer, and yes you get to keep the mug, but still..), I ended up spending most of my time in the washroom trying to get the devil out of me, so lesson learnt: Beer is for drinking, can be faster than sipping red wine, but not gulping everything at one shot, that’s call wastage, or for people like me, we call it the suicide case.

That is one HUGE mug and yes Huai Bin here you go, if I were to finish just half the mug, I guess I will be way redder than him.

Nothing beats spending some quality time with the Nuffies, and here is one of my favourite shot with Yuen –She is almost single and available, for more information you can send in your CV and let’s see if she gives you a green stamp.

(We call her Ah Chan, I don’t know why but well, everyone does have nicknames, what was yours?)

Also here are some of the nuffies who were there that night.

I wasn’t working but just turning on my laptop to charge my phone, just to clarify, I am not so much of a workaholic, am I? (Michelle, Pinky, and Nic Gan)

Wikipedia told me that Oktoberfest is known to have the largest crowd in the world, let’s make it happen in Malaysia!

Enjoyed most of the happenings there, the company, the food, the copious amounts of Tiger beer, and of course, you can’t miss a chicken dance from an Oktoberfest!

The tune is still kinda stuck in my head, till then; let’s go for the next Oktoberfest! =)

If you don't know much about Oktoberfest, time to do some research before you head to one!

http://oktoberfest.com.my

Santa Please

2010-10-02T11:32:00.000+08:00

Dear Santa,

I am making an early wish here, can I have them in front of my door step when you visit me?

Oh please I will get you a faster reindeer so you can be here early before December, but make sure you wear short pants and singlet, it's hot here in Malaysia!

My Wish List :

1. Olympus EPL-1

2. MAC Book Pro (Not greedy, 15 inch is enough) - Someone influenced me blardy hell (you know who you are okay!)

3. Car

Only 3 for now, please please please!

I did behave!

Are You Moist Enough?

2010-09-28T00:22:00.000+08:00

Talking about skin, especially for Asian, we live in Malaysia, where our skin get damage easily...

So... Are you moist enough?

For girls, you won't know how many bottle of lotion are stored in my room, I think there are 6 bottles in my closet, that shows how important I want my skin to be moist like all the time... But why 6 bottles when you can settle it with 1 bottle of Vaseline?

Your new skin saviour in town that comes in few range that you will really have to try it out before you say anything!

Well I believe in smooth skin, so ever if your boyfriend touches you, he will feel good too... (Erm well...)

Will I see you at Vaseline pool side event?

Say hi to me will ya?

Live Life

2010-09-19T15:25:00.001+08:00

I need to get myself a nice camera, I know I have talked about this on my previous posts before, but well, I don't have the money yet, but I guess I will get it before the year ends, just a present for myself. =)

Went dinner with a friend the other day, and bought 2 books without second thought, cost me not much but definitely not the amount I would spend only on 2 books, well... People changed right?

After what happen, I guessed I would say it was a good one, and yes I never fail to learn plenty from every fall I got back up, it's all in the mind, if you can control your mind, you can do whatever you think you can.

Someone told me to look after the number 1 - Myself, not anyone else, because if anything goes wrong with number 1, there won't be number 2 or 3 or 4 or 5... (Thanks hey, like seriously...)

I never learnt so much in my life in such a short period, like in 2 weeks time? It's like a super fast forward growing up process, that I realized, I wasn't living my life, I was tied down to so many unnecessary things, and I start to think back, I was in doubts too until now, I felt that I am living again, it's like a whole new life again, things that I can't do before, I don't dare to pursue, I think I am doing it now.

What made me really change is that, I learnt how to handle unexpected surprises, and trust me, if you can handle it, there is nothing else you can't.

I remembered after when I shifted to my new place, there was this night when the electricity was off, and due to the fact that I stays really close to nature, thus if there is no light, it is totally pitch black.

I was practically alone in the dark, I parked my car, off the lights, and wow there you go, you don't know what is going to happen next.

I did not stay in the car or drove to some place and wait till the lights are back, but I walked down the stairs slowly, and every corner, it gives you the feeling that there could be something waiting, wanted or unwanted, it will come, and it very much depends on how you are going to face it.

Life is exactly like that, you can't see what is there for you, for all you know it's just a maze, with many corners and it's dark, every corner you take and turn, there might be unexpected incidents, and every decision you make, it's gonna lead to a different story, and what would play the role as the light - Our Mind : Expect the Unexpected

So I am here, telling those who are going through a hard time - Your Mind is Your Torch in Life

If you can picture it in your mind, you will have it in your hands.

I Got A Cat As Friend

2010-09-15T18:55:00.000+08:00

This was last year during Tiger Standout, it was us meeting each other, for the very first time, I don't know how he looks like (expecting him to be looking catty) and I think he knew how I looks like...

He was just in front of me but I never noticed it until when he was about to leave the party, I figured it out it was him. =)

Credits to Akiraceo

He is one friend that I am lucky to have. =)

The Good Old Things

2010-08-22T19:51:00.002+08:00

Had a good Sunday, it's been long since I hang out with my best friends. =)

As the saying goes, you don't need to have a lot of friends, a handful of best friends is just more than enough, and I have them... =)

We were talking about the good old days, those days where you can just go anywhere without worrying about anything, despite the face that parents are the ones that worried about us... After class, will just go hang out at the nearest cafe and have some bonding sessions with college mates, or catch a movie when I was still attached, to an extend that we don't know what else movie to watch because most of the movies we already watched, everything was just simple and nice, even stress will be from final exams, and now i recall back, was that even stress?

Now we are all grown up, from topics like meeting up new dates to talking about marriage and future, these topics don't seems to be new anymore, we kinda like forget that we have all grown up, no more living in the 18 19 year old life, we are now adults, where career is number one priority, well thats the age where you go all the way before you reach mid 30s or 40 when you just want to sit back and relax a bit. From wearing school uniform and carrying heavy bags with text books on your hand, to wearing office apparels and carrying laptops, different stage of life.

You won't know how rare I log into my Facebook, so everytime I log in, almost 80% that I will get the news that one of my friends gotten married, or some gave birth to a second child, and it feels weird because time passes so fast that I sometimes thought we are just starting to age? But then opps no, we are in our mid 20s and well almost 30s? Scare the shit hell out of me, because I have nothing yet!

But well, my time will come, I think... =D

Happy weekend and hello Monday...

Yeap I don't remember when this picture was taken, opps I am aging, seriously people...

Do You Know?

2010-08-21T09:33:00.000+08:00

It's been more than a year I have been with Nuffnang, and I am sure some of you might have dropped by our office before, but do you know our office has a really pretty view when the day is welcoming the night?

And when the night is here.... and when all the lights are turn on... It's just pretty... =)

I'm finally taking a short holiday next week, and I need a camera, any good suggestions?

It's been the longest time since I go for a holiday, and every time when I know I am travelling, the 1st thing that comes to my mind would be my Hush Puppies luggage bag hehe...

Good morning everybody!

Yes my just woke up face, sorry if some of you just lost your appetite for a morning breakfast... Teehee!

History Repeated

2010-08-14T10:46:00.001+08:00

I don't know why, I always have this thing with drains, whenever it involves me crossing drains, almost 50% I will fall down.

Yes not the first time I hurt my legs and scratch my skin on the tarmac, and it happened again last week when I finished my meeting, walked out to the guardhouse and was about to cross a freaking super small drain, tadaaa! I slipped and fell, like a freaking ballerina...

Except mine wasn't that graceful, and instead of a pretty finishing pose, i was something like this... T3T

First thing on my mind - ANYONE LAUGHING?! Look straight to that someone whom I followed to this meeting, in my mind telling him " You better not laugh, don't even try to smile! FTS... "

Was limping back to the office, well thank god it was just some scratches...

Now because the wound is drying up, therefore the colour is darker... Can't wear tight pants to avoid scratching it against the wound...

Well to make myself happy again, I went for some yummy dessert, look at that clumsy and happy face, yea that tall glass of thing, really did make me happy. =D

Oh something random, I realized that I don't really know how to camwhore, and to have a really decent picture of myself, I have to try many times... Face problem I think... T_T

Have a good weekend people!

**SMILE**

Note to self : Need to lose those fats on my face T3T

Celcom MTV World Stage

2010-07-29T15:43:00.003+08:00

To all music lover fans out there, thanks to Celcom Channel X, they are bringing down some of the hottest performing artists to perform live in Sunway Pyramid.Well, especially when you are into Katty Perry's pretty blue eyes, Tokio Hotel, or even Wonder Girls ( Yes the pretty girls from Korea), you should not be missing this change to be there with them don't ya?

Here is your chance to be hear them sing and perform live for you, you can dance all you want, you can scream all you have, and you can just sing like there is no one listening!

Venue : Surf Beach @ Sunway Pyramid
Time : 31st July 2010, 6PM

Visit Channel X if you want to get a taste of a real cool concert, are you going? Yes you are!

Munchy's Music

2010-07-27T11:00:00.000+08:00

Let me list down some of the ways you can get girls around you, well at least these attracts me...

1. Your killer suit (Suit you put charm on it)
2. Your stylish hairstyle
3. Your killer smile
4. Your skill of sweet talking
5. Your skill in instruments
6. Your personality - Down to earth prince charming
7. Your dance moves
8. Your way of being shy when you get compliments
9. Your way of looking
10. And if you know beat boxing

Let's say if you can do something like this and you are in Malaysia, and on top of that you are looking for a chance to perform and show your skills, well your chance is here!

Let's look at how good beat boxing kick ass when you are not in the right place for it, but you get the pass from the judges to finish off the whole performance, without them shooing you away with the bell on their hands.

Now Malaysians here's you chance of beat boxing competition!
Music Munchy's

I bet you can do better than this boy can you?

I Met HIM

2010-07-19T13:00:00.000+08:00

I remember I used to admire him a lot, but the fact that I will only see him on TV, forget about it, how you would even bump into him even if you are in Bangkok, like what you studied in Add Math during secondary school, the kebarangkalian (Possibility) is like 0…

But hell yea, after how many miserable years, I met him, not going to miss a chance to take a picture! Actually few pictures ehehe *shy* ; someone even told him I am his hardcore fan since 14 wtf…

So well here you go, some pictures I taken with him during this Celcom Xplay party hehehe…

Look at that fan girl face wtf...

Well if you are a fan of UTT and you know what, you can see him at the next Xplay party. !hi

***Melaka, Pure Bar, Friday 23rd July***

Creative Now

2010-07-10T10:56:00.000+08:00

Was surfing the net, and randomly saw this laptop, it's customized in a heart shape, damn pretty, perfect for a valentines' gift, or I guess you can use it for proposal instead of a ring.

Malaysia, can you have more customized design laptop now?

Shit I wish I can have this... T_T

Do You Invest?

2010-06-29T12:35:00.001+08:00

I’m only in my mid 20s and I have debts to pay off, nope I don’t have a credit card yet, nope I don’t own a car yet but soon (Yes that will add in to my ‘To Pay Off Debt Before I Die’ list).

So with my current salary, like any other people, we will have to separate more than half of the amount to pay off debts, and only some to survive for a month, while you might not even have anything to save for future, horrible goodness… >.<

So we need… Side income? Definitely investment is the thing you should be looking at it now, learning since young is beneficial and trust me, you will know why.

So how do I invest? I know nuts about investing, that’s why now you see all sorts of business out there are open to tackle the needs of dummies like me, we have agents to help us invest and best it’s all online now - www.fundsupermart.com.my

Fundsupermart is a unit trust specialist, and usually we have the impression that investment is expensive, we have to hold a certain amount of money before we start to invest, but Fundsupermart offers to have investors to begin investing regularly every month with just RM10.00 ONLY!

Start investing already! You won't want to grow old with a grumpy face just because your pockets are empty... >.<

It's been a while

2010-06-28T19:39:00.002+08:00

It's been a while since I cook...
I mean real cooking... Hello I can cook, its the matter of it is tasty or not...

I shall do it next weekend, this weekend schedule is filled and I'm excited yay!

Love Story

2010-06-20T22:23:00.000+08:00

Been long since I spent my whole Sunday at home, watched 2 movies in a row, bad choice for my eyes...
I watched The Notebook & The Time Traveler's Wife, both are just sad but beautiful love stories...

What is it like to just love 1 person for the rest of your life? I don't know about the guys but I guess girls are pretty much into loving only you kind of theory in their life, yes I am one of them...

I had few love stories before but non of them lasted, and occasionally it makes me think if I am going to have few more stories in my life? That would be a bad news because I am not 18 anymore...

After these 2 movies today, I am starting to think how my story would be, like The Notebook, how would my story be in my notebook? Would it be as touching and lovey like I always wanted? Or just another ordinary story, I don't know but I think I should start writing down everything in a notebook, so he could read it for me when I am losing my memory. =)

I am a sucker for beautiful love stories... Someone save me...

黄昏

2010-06-20T21:45:00.000+08:00

搬进来这新家已经有半年时间了
偶尔间都会看到黄昏的露台
我都会很珍惜那一下下的时候，好好的欣赏黄昏的时刻

我就是那一些会为了黄昏而落泪的人
我就是那些会为了那么的一点感动而哭泣的人
我就是那些喜欢躲在房间里享受那一个人的感觉的人
我就是那种喜欢把事情都联系到感性的话题的人
我更加是喜欢靠在男友胸膛听他心跳而感到温馨的人
我还会是会喜欢跳上男友背后跟他撒娇的那个傻妞

可是啊。。。
凡事都会有那个可是的东西在搞鬼，你说对吗？

Positive & Negative

2010-06-08T21:19:00.001+08:00

Do you think that humans are more prone to have negative thoughts?
I have a situation here :

Pal A is facing pressure from his work place, and he is giving himself pressure to achieve the innitial target, but the picture don't seems to be a happy ones,what expecting is not coming,what is not expected is affecting the initial target.
Negative thoughts:
Pressured plant the effect on pal A, gave up and continue doing nothing,hoping for miracle to fall
Positive thoughts :
Healthy pressure, in fact giving self pressure not to give up, don't sit and wait, find solutions and do his best

Now...
Negative is always easier to 'achieve', just like running down a slope,or walking down on a escalator,not even talking about stairs.
Positive is always the hard ones, you need to be strong to sustain the positive thoughts, like walking up batu caves stairs.

So which one are you? Negative or positive?
I'm definetely with the positive site,because that's what make life more challenging, and yes fun.

Cheers.

Why Smart Phones Can Be Dumb Phones

2010-05-24T23:18:00.001+08:00

Why Smart Phones can be Dumb Phones?

Well I was on my way to a meeting this afternoon, took the monorail and phew lucky enough I found a seat...
Before I warm up the seat, I overheard a conversation from behind, 2 ladies were talking which mobile phone is better...
"Eh Sony bagus kan? Cantik lah model baru tu..."
"Ya kah? Tapi I suka Nokia lebih lah... Ingat nak beli iPhone tapi tak de duit, Blackberry bang sedang guna, dia kata bagus juga..."

Well well well... I was using a Sony phone until it gave up on me after 3 years, long enough for me to change to a better phone, I remembered I was in dilemma, was picking over another Sony and a Nokia phone, but ended up buying a Blackberry Bold...
Nope, no regrets on my decision, in fact I think it's a good pick, but the only thing missing was a data plan...

Yes I bought it but WITHOUT a data plan, it's just like having a super hot & good looking boyfriend but he can't perform in bed ahem, how sad?? VERY SAD...

Reason why? Because I was using the go green telco, and to subscribe for a data plan, it cost me a bomb, how to afford? So yes went on with a what you call a smart phone but it was dumb, just like any other normal phones, you can only make calls and do sms, and some other things where you won't need an internet.
No I don't understand when Nicholas Chay told me this " You cannot feel your Blackberry's power yet right? Coz you are not using it also... Once you feel the power, you will be addicted..."

Addicted? Nope I don't believe, how much can you do with a smart phone? Okay ya you can check mail and stuff, what else? Surf the net? How often? Not good enough from your laptop?
Until the evil force was here , I subscribed to DiGi plan for RM68!!!... That's it, my life changes since then...

I will just play with my phone when I am not doing anything else, I will surf youtube even when I am walking, or erm in the toilet, yes magazines in my bathroom is all collecting dust already... But what are you not using your smart phone to the max when it's only RM68 (Kiasu right? I know...)
With DiGi Smart Plan, it's just like having a small pond with a lot of fishes!

So I don't need a boyfriend anymore because I got my wonder BB with DiGi Smart Plan, just like have a super hot + good looking + caring + loving boyfriend + definitely good in bed, awesome shit!
Ok was just kidding about don't need a boyfriend, if I have him, I will make sure he is a smartphone user too, probably a BB, so we can has bbm, can jimat sms cost okay!

Are you planning to make your smartphone smarter with DiGi already? =)
Till then!

My Neck

2010-05-17T18:50:00.000+08:00

I think I slept on a wrong pillow with the wrong'est position, my neck and back is all aching that I can't look down, left and right smoothly!

Monthly visit is here too (If you know what I meant), gaah I am one of those unlucky ones, when I am having it, I usually suffer the numb and aching for the 1st few days, haih...

Why women... Why?

Dunno since when this was taken, and I can't recall who took this, but yea definitely fits in my moody mood today.

Cheers people!

Thanks Mom

2010-05-09T20:29:00.000+08:00

Thank you for taking care of this little brat eventhough there are times she let you down, and you still believe in her.

I love you and I'm glad that I have you as my mom in this life, if I can even pick who should be my mom for the next life, I wish to have you again. =)

I am not a princess, I don't live a princess life, but because of you, constantly making sure we all leave under a shelter that I felt like a palace in a small hut, that's how great you are...

I don't need to worry about anything when I go to bed, because I know you will be there tomorrow to give me support when I need them...

I love you mom, and you know I really do, right?

Happy Mothers' Day!

Besides Papa Goon, brother and me, Ben loves you too!

Supermarket Flash Mob

2010-05-09T12:36:00.000+08:00

Flash mobs are really interesting, but it fails when the ending everyone should have just disperse, but they didn't lol...

I guess the whole idea of flash mob is to catch the public in surprise, and leave them in doubt like "Wtf just happen?..."

I personally enjoyed the tribute to Michael Jackson -Beat it flash mob the most.
While searching trhough others, I actually found this...

Pretty interesting lol...

I'm a girl

2010-04-29T18:00:00.000+08:00

Playing online games doesn't make you a guy, I can play Left 4 Dead in a sissy way...
Watching action movies like Transformers doesn't make you a guy, I can watch and imagine it as Barbie...
Plus loving horror movies and gruesome stories doesn't make you a guy, I can easily count a few guys on my mind who don't dare watching these... (You know who you are ahem...)

No worries DogBone, you are talking to a real girl, no I haven't been to Thailand for any surgeries don't cha worry, it's just my nature that I am into guy's kind of thing?

I am a girl, really... That hard to believe?
Trying to schedule a day sometime next week for Nightmare on Elm Street, niceeeeee...

Some People

2010-04-29T13:11:00.002+08:00

In this world, some people are just contradicting...
Hello let me ask you, if you don't really like a person, will you talk to him/her?
For me? Nope, that's why if you realize I haven't been talking to you, or just to be more specific I don't even bother replying your Facebook message (Directing this message to Ms.Lee), you tau apa hal lah,because I don't like you and please everyone around thinks that you are just a bit*h la.

If you don't like me, don't even bother to fake it out like you care about what's happening around me. Like the saying goes, fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice, shame on me, nope shaming on me part is not going to happen, and sad it is, you never change since primary school... =)
Adding in another note JUST IN CASE you are reading this - I felt lucky for him who left you, because everyone (to rephrase, not only me who gotten this thought) thinks that he deserves someone 100% better than you.

Quote from Huai Bin :
"Anyway, if you don't like reading rants, please go watch Barney the cute purple dinosaur on TV. Yeah, switch on that idiot box."

Thinking Back...

2010-04-21T00:28:00.000+08:00

Some of the old posts really bring back memories, reading them is like walking down my own little memory lane...
I was very much in love with this someone, so much that I want to plan a future with him, so much that I think everything will be going smooth even though it wasn't...

I remembered people around us often tell us that we have the husband and wife look, people have faith in us that we both will build a future together... But well, good scenes never last long, my posts started to get sour and lost its sweetness when I think about you back then, but now, it's all gone for good.

I was worried that will I feel anything if you are seeing someone new already? I was worried I will care too much if this ever happens, maybe I prepared myself too well, or maybe I just don't feel anything anymore, in fact I felt a relief and yes I am definitely happy for you, for moving forward, because that's what life is all about, it doesn't stop there and wait for you just because you don't feel like moving forward.

I hope, we learnt plenty from each other, we will not do things that we know it will hurt our love ones, and, may you be happy with her, as long as it may, make her smile, just like how you made me smile.

Whatever it is, when I think of you, I can only remember the good ones, and I hope when there are moments you are thinking about me, you will smile too.

Thank you for everything... =)

20th April 2010

2010-04-20T23:56:00.000+08:00

Warning : It's the ramblings again, don't bored yourself.

Reading back some of my really old entries, I must say that I haven't been a hardworking blogger, I only blog when I got the urge, and I used to blog with whatever I felt like expressing...
Comparing to my newer entries now, it seems to be 'not me', environment do really change a person eh? Could it possibly be the age too? Yes I am mid 20s now, k thanks bai close file.

Sitting here in my balcony, pretty cooling, with quite a good night view, I am thinking how nice if time will just crawl a little slower for this moment, for me to really enjoy whatever I have now, because I noticed that since I shifted to my new place, I haven't really sat down and enjoy the new shelter, and most important thing is, I forgot to slow down and enjoy...

Parents were complaining that they don't really see me spending time with them, I won't tell them I don't have time, and I will make time for them.

I wish I can be just like him... =) Good life eh?

心情低落

2010-04-15T13:18:00.000+08:00

昨天没睡好
心应该是飞去澳门
好朋友的爸爸有事
我又帮不上忙，好无奈
希望一切都会好好的。。。

Thinking...

2010-03-30T12:43:00.000+08:00

Was stuck in a jam this morning, and saw this police truck which drive prisoners.

It was a busy morning, and when the truck passed by, was just wondering if the prisoners ever envy normal people like us, people like us who stuck in traffic jams, go to work, hang out with friends and family, and they are just behind bars.

But, we are all born normal, no one born to be prisoners, so it's actually simpler than being a prisoner, isn't it?

Mind my ramblings, just some weird thoughts I wanna let it out. =)

Sleeping Time

2010-03-23T23:45:00.001+08:00

Just before I am totally disconnected from the internet world... (No not really, my bb is still connected)
I was browsing through some of my pictures, found some pictures when I was in Phuket.
I went there at the wrong timing, the sea was rough and it was raining almost all the days I was there, but well I still have fun, I missed the food the most...

Next holiday destination, where? Taiwan!

Off to bed, shall do some planning in my dreams for now...

My Burst Day

2010-03-15T22:31:00.001+08:00

No offense but I use to watch a lot of Taiwan shows, and they just can't pronounce birthday but burst day, so yea here I wanna be Taiwan kia a bit to thank everyone for celebrating my burst day with me!

Remembered when I was young, during my primary school time, whenever my birthday is near, I will go around and ask everyone ... " Ei when is your birthday ar?", then after they answer they will ask me back " When is yours?", happily I will tell them " Tomorrow yay!"

As time goes by, the lesser people I ask when is their birthday, because I don't really want them to ask me when? And the thing is that they will ask how old are u.... *Very sensitive question to ladies ok, especially those in mid 20s wtf*

Days before my birthday this year, mom and dad asked if I wanna invite some friends over so she can cook something and celebrate my day, gosh no i don't want mom, I don't want you to cook and wash everything so troublesome, just a simple makan with family is more than enough.

So we went to a simple makan place, not even a hotel, but the dinner was great, not because of the food, but because of the feeling of having both my parents and brother to be at the same table eating a simple dinner, the heart warming feeling. I never realize all this until I started working, until when I reach home mom and dad already eaten and brother will be later than me to be home.

I guessed when someone grows older, they will start to realize and treasure many many small things, which money can't buy, how many more years will you have the chance to be seated all together with your family and have a simple meal? No not often anymore, as long as the time is moving forward, everything seems to be decreasing - Friends, energy, feelings, and yes family, soon they will be gone and only memories, the only thing that will continuously increase will be our age.

This year, besides having a simple dinner with my parents, a simple cake with a birthday song, enough to make me happy and feel lucky.

Other than that, people out there! If you are reading this, this message to you! Thank you for every single wish that I received from you guys, everyone is wonderful and I love you all...

Also thanks to some of my dear clients who wished me on the big day =)

Not forgetting the bucket of flowers with a monkey from OMD Group, also a bunch of roses from a former OMD'ian, yes you know who you are!

Mady, thanks for the Cupido you bought for me, hope it brings good love luck for me, but well of course you will be the one getting married first, that's for sure dear. =)

Thank YOU for the big huggy bear, took him in as a bolster, and don't worry the fur is not dropping and defintely he is not the cause of my flu now. Love the bear!

Suresh and Icoco, thanks for the Swan pendant, it's really pretty and I was just looking to get myself a pendant, did you both read my mind? The gift was unexpected from you both! *Big Hug*

No I won't forget to mention the gift all the way from Singapore, the Adam Lambert CD from this fella I called him small boy - Kevin Chan (Thank you hey)

Last but not least, the ultimate crazy night with the nuffies! You guys are simply the bezt colleagues and friends! Thank you for the voice losing night dearies, I lap you allllll!!!

Pretty

2010-03-12T23:15:00.000+08:00

I think this is a pretty picture, which I accidentally found it on the internet.

It gives me a peaceful feeling...

I am a year older now, just passed my birthday 2 days ago.

Haven't update my b'day post, maybe the next post.

Once again,

Thank you for all the wishes, through phone calls, smses, facebook and twitter.

Use to dream about presents when I was young, but I guess once you grow older, even a simple wish from a friend is good enough.

Have a great weekend people.

Cheers.

Happy Cina Valentines

2010-02-28T18:30:00.000+08:00

The last day of CNY in 2010, time flies, they really do
Anyways, Happy Chinese Valentines people :
For those who are single
Females : Throw your best oranges
Males : Collect your lucky oranges

By all means, get married and have kids wth...

As for me, I visited SPCA today, and this is my 3rd time here.
Since I have shifted and staying near SPCA, thought I could drop by when my friend came for a visit at my place today.
So we drove there and we had a good time with the animals there.

Was sad to see some of the adult dogs are being left behind, being abandoned by their owners etc etc, one thing it is, if you don't have the commitment, and thinking you just want to have fun when they are still a puppy, please pay a visit at the pet shops whenever you feel like it, instead of buying one and leave them somewhere later.

Met this lady who is a voluntary, bathing a dog, she was telling us that how all this poor dogs ended up here, and how friendly some of them can be, while talking to her, I can feel the passion in her. How many people are willing to spend their weekends in SPCA bathing the dogs? I say I'm an animal lover, but when I met her, she really did show me how far can an animal lover do.

She is not dead, she is just trying to make my friend to pat her more, maybe some massage.

Last but not least, I wanted to introduce Jack, my new neighbour since I have shifted here.

Jack looks like a fat and clumsy dog, but you are wrong, he is one brave dog who runs after wild boars in my garden, and he can run real fast.

Fat but ran damn fast - Malaysia Policeman (I saw one fat policeman ran damn fast after a school girl who was on drug okay? Don't play play ar)

Till then, another new week starting tomorrow, and my besties is back from Macau for a week, yahooo!

Sleeping Disorder

2010-02-23T07:52:00.000+08:00

Not sure why but I haven't been sleeping like a baby for a long time...
I'll wake up with a mild chest and headache, the more I try to get back to sleep, the more painful it gets...

I don't remember when was the last time I slept throughout the night without waking up...

CNY is ending, and I definitely missed the holidays, especially when I was back in Gopeng, and I was at Cherating for a short while too. =)

I think the next time I go back to Gopeng, she will be able to walk already

And I definitely going to miss the beach, although the sea was rough and the resort was not recommended.

Cheers everyone and Happy CNy since its not ending yet, hehe...